Today, I entered the coffee room around evening. The room was empty. I felt as if I was wishing for it to be empty, and it was empty indeed. I closed the door, leaned against the wall, and stood there for a few minutes, staring at the blankness. I am not sure if I am referring to the emptiness of the room or something within.
Yeah, I had been losing focus for quite some time now. I often feel people get caught up in small issues, they worry about small things, and in turn, no attention is really paid to the big things. It is so easy to get lost in every day small issues. Then suddenly, one fine day, you start to wonder -- why are you doing whatever you are doing? Why are you where-ever you are? Is it somewhere you want to be ? The answer to some of these questions are pretty simple. Are you happy today ? If the answer is yes, then it does not matter how you got there, why you got there. At least I hope so.
However, if the answer is no, then what should you do? Try to find the reason for the same and eliminate it ? or find a work-around for the same?
I wanted to search answers for these things. However, I could not think of even an O(n) search algorithm for the same, forget O(log(n)), which might help me find what I am looking for.
It is hard to find something when you don’t know what it is.
Life is too short to not do things you like. It is too short to worry about things you cannot change.
Eww, I have a weird feeling -- It is one of those times, when I am not able to understand myself, when I feel I don’t know myself... not even one bit. Who is this stranger sitting in front of my computer, in my clothes? Do I know her? Who is she? Am I searching for an answer? Or just the process of search is good enough to keep me engaged in my thoughts.
There are times some simple short conversations leave huge questions. Care is such a important concept. How can you quantize it? What does care mean in the first place?
Am I looking for answers to my questions? May be not..I hope to find them on my way somewhere sometime. Well, if you do have answers (and you think they are convincing enough..)feel free to tell me.
Chase is a funny word (PS : I am not talking about Chase bank). It has such a simple meaning, yet it is so complex. Mind, feelings, anticipation, focus, work are words which follow the same -- so simple in Oxford dictionary, so complex in real life.
May be real life is like that -- far from illusion. May be the only place they meet is in movie by Christopher Nolan, Inception.
May be it is best to just focus on things I can focus on and let the world around me handle its own problems. Easier path might not be the best, but that is what makes it easy in the first place :) :)
Anyway, too much writing for a day, time to take off for dinner :)
Yeah, I had been losing focus for quite some time now. I often feel people get caught up in small issues, they worry about small things, and in turn, no attention is really paid to the big things. It is so easy to get lost in every day small issues. Then suddenly, one fine day, you start to wonder -- why are you doing whatever you are doing? Why are you where-ever you are? Is it somewhere you want to be ? The answer to some of these questions are pretty simple. Are you happy today ? If the answer is yes, then it does not matter how you got there, why you got there. At least I hope so.
However, if the answer is no, then what should you do? Try to find the reason for the same and eliminate it ? or find a work-around for the same?
I wanted to search answers for these things. However, I could not think of even an O(n) search algorithm for the same, forget O(log(n)), which might help me find what I am looking for.
It is hard to find something when you don’t know what it is.
Life is too short to not do things you like. It is too short to worry about things you cannot change.
Eww, I have a weird feeling -- It is one of those times, when I am not able to understand myself, when I feel I don’t know myself... not even one bit. Who is this stranger sitting in front of my computer, in my clothes? Do I know her? Who is she? Am I searching for an answer? Or just the process of search is good enough to keep me engaged in my thoughts.
There are times some simple short conversations leave huge questions. Care is such a important concept. How can you quantize it? What does care mean in the first place?
Am I looking for answers to my questions? May be not..I hope to find them on my way somewhere sometime. Well, if you do have answers (and you think they are convincing enough..)feel free to tell me.
Chase is a funny word (PS : I am not talking about Chase bank). It has such a simple meaning, yet it is so complex. Mind, feelings, anticipation, focus, work are words which follow the same -- so simple in Oxford dictionary, so complex in real life.
May be real life is like that -- far from illusion. May be the only place they meet is in movie by Christopher Nolan, Inception.
May be it is best to just focus on things I can focus on and let the world around me handle its own problems. Easier path might not be the best, but that is what makes it easy in the first place :) :)
Anyway, too much writing for a day, time to take off for dinner :)
